"As if wedding planning wasn't stressful enough..."
"As if being laid off from your job wasn't stressful enough..."
"As if trying to avoid and survive a global pandemic wasn't stressful enough..."
"As if trying your hand at homeschooling wasn't stressful enough..."
I'm stressed to say the least.
Shortly after getting engaged in May 2019, Harley and I selected a venue and set a wedding date for early 2021. Plenty of time to plan without morphing into Bridezilla.
Wedding party chosen. Dress ordered. Theme selected. Save the dates mailed. First few vendor deposits paid and - BOOM - pandemic.
Everyone in quarantine.
Everyone stay away from others that don't reside in your home.
Hey you, the former HR associate, yeah, you're a teacher now...and also are responsible to perform in one hundred other roles.
This was not my plan.
I'm doing my best not to freak out, but there is so much uncertainty that I'm finding it hard not to let it creep in. I realize that we still have several months until the big day, but think about the past few months - a complete blur.
What do I do if the next few months are also a complete blur and, pandemically speaking, things aren't better come the -ber months?
Am I the bride that has to send "Release the date" cards because we can't go over a certain head count for our indoor venue?
Do I have to wear a custom sewn "Bride" mask to match my dress?
Is our first dance going to be to The Police's Don't Stand So Close To Me?
I'm doing my best to act responsibly and be prepared. I'm hoping for the best but preparing for the worst.
Hopefully it's all a waste of time. Preparing for the worst, that is.
Hopefully, by that point, I'll be able to hug my guests. Hell, hopefully my guests can come and not have to quarantine for 14 days prior for crossing state borders. Hopefully we can have a bar and a kickass dance party in the same vicinity. Hopefully we don't have to include hand sanitizer in our hotel welcome bags or as a favor.
Breathe.
What's reassuring though is that I'm marrying my best friend. It's true. I'm doing it. Just like in those movies. And it'll be just as it should be. It'll be perfect.
